Day 70 Needing approval

     I’ve come to realize something about responsibly standing up for what is best for all; no one needs to like it, not even me. Here is some self forgiveness on needing other people’s approval.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as fear of disproval of what I decide to do with my time as this fear protects me in self interest so I don’t have to deal with other people’s emotions. This fear can only serve to keep me from standing up for life, keeping me in line to serve other people’s expectations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hope for some kind of approval when taking on a task as if I need to know I am protected from judgment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get frustrated over the fact that someone may judge my actions without realizing what the most efficient use of my time is.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate with the “fuck off” backchat when someone says I need to be doing something as opposed to what I decide to do.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as guilt in not seeing myself move efficiently during my day as I justify being told how to move by others, in this I see I go into negative self judgment and as I blame others for the way I feel I go into a state of suppressed anger as I want to retaliate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as anger towards feeling like I have too much to deal with as in having to deal with my responsibilities and other peoples approval when in fact I am creating unnecessary consequence such as wasting time in my mind, lack of self movement and just wanting to give up.

I commit myself to when faced with any thought, feeling or emotion about someone disapproving my actions I stop, I breathe myself into the physical and direct myself in consideration of what is best for all.

I commit myself to not wait till I feel I have approval to move myself realizing it’s up to me to decide what is the most effective way to move, if someone has something to say about what I am doing- I practically consider what is being said and direct myself in terms of what is best for all to the best of my ability.

 

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